shall we.

i’m in lame’s house now :) waiting for time to pass to meet bobo, glory and pacey YAWNS. actually i have quite a few things to blog. about yesterday and today. and the year. YES ITS 31ST DEC ): (: i dont know if i’m too happy about that. i dont really want to be 20. or more like i REALLY dont want to be 20. i cant imagine it. so old ):

and i have to blog quickly cos i have to leave lame’s house soon HAHA.

yesterday had dance (: and dance was quite fun as usual. measurements! and lifts. haha. and jumps. :D and then dance new year party. too much food. and charades was silly. merry go round was horrible. wanted to puke. and sparklers were quite smokey but pretty. and then ice cream at thomson. and a long walk home :)

had breakfast this morning with my parents at sgoon gardens. then left to meet clique. had a pretty taitai day. kind of loved it :) lunch at astons. yumyum. and then shopping around aimlessly for cute and useless things. got a notebook, buttons and cloth. TWING TWING. and then after much walking, we had tea (well dessert la) at secret recipe :) aunties in the making. and camwhored. funny fun fun.

hope later’s fun. new year? yes resolution and thanksgiving have yet to be done. wheehoo. and dee’s coming back soon! :) time flieeees. and and and, resevoir tmr morning. YES. happy.

sometimes when we touch.

i’m in a melancholic state now. haha. no, not perpetually sad. HAHAH. ok. i just hung up on an irritating woman who called from nokia and kept rambling on in chinese. i’m sorry i know i used to be in your shoes but now’s not really the time. HAHA.

this song ’sometimes when we touch’ by olivia ong. we use it to stretch for dance alot. why is it so sad?! ): this is why i say i love lyrics. i’m such a lyrics person.

you ask me if i love you
and i choke on my reply
i’d rather hurt you honestly
than mislead you with a lie
and who am i to judge you
on what you say or do?
i’m only just beginning to see the real you

and sometimes when we touch
the honesty’s too much
and i have to close my eyes and hide
i wanna hold you til i die
til we both break down and cry
i wanna hold you till the fear in me subsides

romance and all its strategy
leaves me battling with my pride
but through the insecurity
some tenderness survives
i’m just another writer
still trapped within my truth
a hesitant prize fighter
still trapped within my youth

and sometimes when we touch
the honesty’s too much
and i have to close my eyes and hide
i wanna hold you til i die
til we both break down and cry
i wanna hold you till the fear in me subsides

at times i’d like to break you
and drive you to your knees
at times i’d like to break through
and hold you endlessly

at times i understand you
and i know how hard you’ve tried
i’ve watched while love commands you
and i’ve watched love pass you by

at times i think we’re drifters
still searching for a friend
a brother or a sister
but then the passion flares again

and sometimes when we touch
the honesty’s too much
and i have to close my eyes and hide
i wanna hold you til i die
til we both break down and cry
i wanna hold you till the fear in me subsides

unlike some.

something causing fear to fly
rising like a dark night
in silence
traveling like a broken boat
heading for the sky
and i’m an island

i watched you disappear into the clouds
swept away into another town

the world carries on without you
but nothing remains the same
i’ll be lost without you
until the last of days

the sun is in the east,
rising for the beasts
and the beauties
i wish that i could tear it down,
plant it in the ground to warm your face

i built myself a castle on the beach
watching as it slid into the sea

the world carries on without you
but nothing remains the same
i’ll be lost without you
until the last of days
until the last of days

through walls and harvest moons
i will fight for you

the world carries on without you
but nothing remains the same
i’ll be lost without you
until the last of days
until the last of days

charmaine neo, i love you i love you i love you. and i really want to meet you to stone at the resevoir. but more than stoning, i want to talk to you :)

sometimes i really see no point in blogging about the day’s activities. and today i happen to feel that way. so to shorten it, it was cbd, dance, movie. haha. laaazzzyyy.

i am not.

HAPPY BIRTHDAY LAME :)

so i’m here. 12.30am. blogging. i’m in a hmmm mood ): i dont know why thats ): and not (: but whatever. meanie beanie. sigh.

ok so mhs yesterday. oh i actually managed to complete the christmas cards HAHA. lum, derric and joel came early. was supposed to practice their harmonica but smart derric forgot to bring the scorebook. so he and joel left to get it and lum and i were just stoning/talking in my room until the rest came like 1 hour later.

they made us wrap all their gifts. haha then party. friends, wow. there were so many. we girls were overwhelmed by the sheer number of guys. yes 31 new friends, all guys. so in total it was 43 guys and 5 girls. it was abit scary like cos they all look the same and bunch together. and yes so we stuck together for safety HAHA wth. overall it was quite ok i guess. the harmonica part was hilarious and quite cute. and loke’s guitar and song was nice too. the video was abit hmm and the gift exchange was just :| hahaha. guys. oh but it was cool because saw some old friends from sajc and stuff.

meanie came to church today :D happy. i feel blessed. you have no idea what i’m feeling now and how much i thank God for all this. when i think back, it all seems :) impossible. this morning i was thinking to myself that the last entry of the year would go to thanksgiving YAY. can’t wait i got so many things about just this year that i lovee.

after church was lunch with the cg. we mega rotted at j8 foodcourt for super long after lunch. and i gradually grew sleepier and sleepier. haha. it was nice though. seemed like a really long time ago that we’ve had lunch as a cg. i still remember all the stuff we did together as a cg earlier on this year. seems so long ago ): all those crappy movies and outings. haha. then bobo and i met pacey at novena. we walked around abit and then went to starbucks to chill. dark cherry mocha :D haha. thanks bobo. yumyum i know you two hate it. and i hate to say this but i think we ARE in some ways kind of bitchy. yes? but anyway, surprising surprises in conversations and other stuff. i love you all even though we agree we can never live together. i seriously dont want next year to come. can time stop now. hate being 20. and no more them. what am i going to do?! ): ): ):

then dance. dance was quite :) HEYHEY. only did the routine like 3 times in all. discussed costumes and hair. yucky eewy hair. dance tmr. dance on tuesday. yahooo. and there’s really too little time. dance has robbed me of all my time. i need to meet clique. lame’s bday. i need to meet meanie. i need to meet the girls before glory goes ): and there’s REALLY NO TIME ): ): ): ohmygosh so sad. rarrrh.

ok i feel kind of BLEAH now. i am going to sleep ): wow so many sad faces in one entry. haha. first time.

:)

:)

mhs party over. not too bad. more updates tmr. oh guess what, the girl:guy ratio was 5:43. means around 1:9 HAHA. wow.

supercalifragilisticexpialidocious

so after pjparty, dance and SHOPPING last night, i really dieded. like shopping know. my stamina is excellent laaa, can’t believe i still agreed to accompany my parents to shop at supercrowded orchard :D my parents actually wanted to buy things for me ok. i have no idea why they always contradict themselves. i thought they said i shopped too much already?! haha. so i got a pretty blouse which is supposed to be my cny clothes HAHA. abit early right? but well. and another dress HEEEEE. and clips. but oh as i was walking around the shopping centre i was seriously zoning out. like going to sleep. and so tired. but i’m amazing, i’m still able to spend money while being tired. haha.

then i slept at 11.45 and thats quite early for me these few days. but the even more surprising thing was that i woke up at 9.40 this morning. HA! waking up late never happens to cheryl tan ok! but its :) i got 10 hours of sleeeep. oh precious rest. and then i started chionging cg christmas cards at 10 :S and i’m almost done now.

went to amk hub with eugene. and he drove :D teehee. wowee i feel like a pampered lady getting driven everywhere nowadays. OKAY YES WHATEVER. haha. and i sat in his big van muahaha. bought all the stuff from ntuc. fruits and utensils. and then had lunch at S11. and then drove home. but we were damn stupid i swear. like his van was very empty at the back and we didnt tie the plastic bag of apples and the whole plastic bag of fruits. so like on the way home the melon and apples were rolling around at the back of the van and hitting the sides like everytime he turned/stopped/accelerated whatever. like bong bong bong. hahaha. DAMN SMART RIGHT. i think the melon’s bruised now lah!

alrights, i’m going to complete my christmas cards :) haha.

can i have this dance?

rushing and racing and running in circles, moving so fast i’m forgetting my purpose, blur of the traffic is sending me spinning, getting no where. save me, somebody take my hand and lead me, slow me down.

soo many times i’ve been listening to this song. and i only just realised how i really should be singing this to myself. hahaha. my life is seriously moving too quickly.

BUT I AM QUITE HAPPY :D so that’s a different story. i think i’ve had too many activities over the past few days that i can’t feel tired anymore. it’s possible. when you do things non stop, you don’t feel tired. not until you stop anyway. so i have no idea where i get my endless energy from. see, i’m still so awake after having an overnight/pj party, sleeping for only 4 plus hours, and surviving 3 hours of dance. i’m so non stop, someone needs to slow me down HAHA. shit i’m really talking nonsense la what is this. to think that i still have mhs tmr! and dance again on sunday. OH MAN I THINK I’M ACTUALLY LOVING THIS :) i hate being bored. and i’m rambling. seriously.

the only sad and obvious thing is that i feel like i’m abusing my body, literally. walking too much over the past few days (to get presents and whatnots) = legs breaking apart. dancing = bruises and aches everywhere. eating crap food (and (DEFINITELY) not eating enough, please just look at the way dancers eat) + sleeping very little (severely lack of sleep ok) = very very bad for my body. yea. i actually ate bread with icecream for breakfast and cheesy fries for lunch today. say wow. oh and i think my phone, camera and wallet are actually feeling like that too. all breaking apart already. and i’m freaking serious. haha.

oh yes so yesterday. what happened on christmas day? i woke up feeling jolly and gay. let’s see how long this rhyme can stay. ok shit i’m stuck. so anyhow had lunch with my parents at secret recipe ps (: met puss at carrefour to do grocery shopping! she said it can be quite fun if we planned our route but too bad, we’re so not aunties yet so we were going all over the place. rather aimless but pretty fun :D we wanted to make our own sushi. honestly! we were all so ready to get the stuff and cook. we were like determined man. but after thinking it through sensibly, we decided we’d just get a sushi food platter :D i dont know if i should call this laziness or just pro lah. RIGHT PUSS? i am quite speechless at ourselves sometimes. haha. so then sushi platterS. and miso soup sachets. and cordials (they are the best). and bread (for the icecream). and nuggets, sausages and potato wedges :) yea yea baby. and then talk talk walk walk and decided to procrastinate getting lame’s present which is oh so typical of us. then went to puss’ house to CHILL. not cook ah! chill (: did weiwei’s card there. and listened to songs and played with xabi. and camwhored (a little).

i realised how great having a mac is. haha. lovelovelove. and xabi is so cute right?! then we made the words for charades for the party. we thought of 90 words in total. so pro right! and they’re all really random words. haha. waited for the food to be cooked. then we left to meet the rest to go lianzy’s house.

PJ PARTY:D the party was really fun lah (: HAHA. i dont know. i feel like we went back 7 years in time though. seemed more like a party for people whose bodies were like that of 19/20/21/22 years old, but still having the mind of a 12 year old. but but, FUN:D lianzy had silly house rules like 1. reach there must change into pjs and tie two ponytails for girls. 2. everyone must stop at 9pm to watch little nonya. HAHA. we started with dinner, which honestly looked damn shiok when it was all laid out on the table. haha. sushi, miso soup, nuggets, sausage, wedges, RICE (yes puss we succeeded in making them full), drinks what else? felt like some family reunion thing. and the dinner table was like silent most of the time (which is normal la, EATING WHAT!) but there were weird conversations in between. quite funny. and then after dinner took photos, talked. we were all too full for anything. but after while we decided to go up:D then it was play play play all the way. the whole thing was just damn fun la. and kind of sick sometimes haha.

wii. tennis. mario kart. bowling. boxing. camwhoring. bridge. tv. little nonya. bread with ice cream. chips. twister (too amusing.). charades! (so hilarious i swear) :D more wii. gift exchange. countdown. sing song. more camwhoring. funny disgusting conversations in between. slap jack. polar bear. pig. category game. who stole the cookies from the cookie jar. bang bang. lots of laughing. bathe. wii again. sleep :D

working hard in the kitchen :D

JUST LOOK AT THE FOOD MAN.

for amusement sake la, LOOK AT THE SHIRT. hahaha.

wiiiiii whee:D

abit sick right. yay lianzy!

hAiRpEe BuRfDaEzX LiAnZIeX~ (ookay)

:)

i love my summary. i thought a better summary would be a one word ‘FUN’. but oh well. need to elaborate a little :) it was all funny funny funny as well. lalala. slept at 4am i think. near there.

and woke up at 9am this morning. or slightly earlier. POOF. then dance. was supposed to start at 10.30 but everyone was late so we only started at 11.30. then danced till 2.30. clean ups and more details. it was quite productive and all. but so tired now.

i’d like to sit by the beach and do nothing at all.

but i don’t think that’s possible.

the greatness of mercy and love, at the feet of Jesus :)

happy birthday.

HAPPY BIRTHDAY DEAR JESUS :) thank you and i love you!

and this kingdom will know no end, and it’s glory shall know no bounds.

yesterday was a happy day :D and quite fun too. went out with a greedy pig. eat eat and eat lol. how can someone eat so much and still feel hungry?! hahaha. lunch and we tried looking for lame’s present but it was a fail. couldn’t find anything nice. then decided to sit down at shokudo and drink. BUT, i was too full. and tired. oh yes, because i only slept 4 hours the previous night k. haha. and even though i was so full, we still wanted to go island creamery. but then we got lost haha. bukit panjang?! anyway it was funny la. i dont know why so stupid. but at least it killed alot of time. so then ice cream and then went to bishan to meet meanie beanie!

silly meanie :D why didn’t we take any photos at all?! and we just sat at macs for 1 hour and DID NOTHING. we didn’t even eat, didn’t even talk (much). just stared into space, stoned, thought and slept. at macs! hahaha. meanie i think we just enjoy each other’s silent company like this. so silly and yet so comfortable. then to my church for christmas service. i was hungry ):

but i was glad. service was quite nice :) meanie i’m happy you came and did what you did. you liked it right?

m2r8k9. HAHA. please DON’T decode it, here. come back again meanie. i know you’re ready :)

the one who answers prayers.

i can’t believe what i heard. it all seems so miraculous.

GOD IS SO GOOD :)

dance days.

:) my days are just getting better.

woke up quite late this morning. (YEA:D) like 9am. then ate breakfast. and then made birthday card! left house at 1 for dance. went to j8 to do shopping for clique gift exchange. i think i got a really nice present, muahaha. lame or weiwei’s lucky. i hope i’m luckier. cotton on is so CROWDED omg. then developed photos and went off for dance.

dance today was GRRREAT :D haha. as in, fun i mean. we did abit of learning how to pirouette (and that kind of sucked). but after that was clean up and trying to perfect the timing. oh we did many prances and jumps today. I LIKE VERY MUCH. dance time is always very happy. and always filled with laughter. :D

i remember lyrics! which is such a useful skill i swear :) they were all amazed. SOMETIMES i feel like i MIGHT disappear in the BLURR of FAST FORWARD i FALTER AGAIN. hahaha. wowee. and today sam danced something wrongly (like ran too far behind) and made us all laugh and laugh :D hoohee.

after dance we had dance dinner. ok not really dance dinner. there was like only 8 of us. ate at nihon mura at cathay. very cheap ($6.50 only!) and nice. and very filling. it was silly and fun :) we talked. about people, and getting leotards, and jcs, and ccas and more outings. and and omg, they dont allow us to take photos inside cathay?! what nonsense. then after dinner, some of them went home. then chenhui, yanhing, desmond, zhigang and i went to mr tea to chill and play games.

played taboo. taboo with them is damn fun i swear. i just kept laughing and laughing nonstop. they are all so entertaining. and we actually finished the whole stack, green colour! :) whoo. and desmond and zhigang treated 3 of us girls to oreo surprises. girls love surprises! :D haha. or rather, girls love oreo. then took train home with chenhui.

hanging out with the dancers is fun. HAHA. more more.