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:)

Unforgettable
Nat King Cole

Unforgettable, that’s what you are
Unforgettable, though near or far
Like a song of love that clings to me
How the thought of you does things to me
Never before has someone been more

Unforgettable in every way
And forever more, that’s how you’ll stay
That’s why, darling, it’s incredible
That someone so unforgettable
Thinks that I am unforgettable too

absence makes?

jb was fun fun fun :) holidays should be like this.

shopped. and ate jap food for lunch :) and shopped more. and played arcade :D i win! ate dessert and then came back home to slaaaack. what a slack day. i dont want tmr to come. POKE POKE.

not really prepared for breakthrough weekend actually ): i’ll miss la. miss miss miss alot. haha.

and i dont want next friday to come also. dont want my father to go usa ): ): ): noooo. so long, so weird, so sad.

why do i always say & do the exact opposite of what i really want?

One more moment :)

Don’t take too long to say
‘I love you’ to the ones you love,
Cause time has a habit of slipping away

Out on a clear blue sky,
When lighting strikes on a sunny day,
Just take me in and keep me from the rain,

And the words that seem so hard to say,
Come out when you’ve gone away.
Stay a little while and hear me say,

That I want you here tonight,
and I need you by my side,
for just one more moment,
for just one more moment,
With you.

humdrum.

going jb day trip :D yay.

studied most of yesterday. and then went to eat eat eat at many places last night :)

pp chicken rise & bubble tea. little donuts & icecream!

and i saw samsung mp3 ): i waaaaant. and oh and i think i should get new phone too even though i dont really feel like.

meaniebeans is the best place. and i hope you’re not shocked anymore :)

the pessimist.

i love meaniebeans secret ranting place :D
YAYYYEEE. it’s so nice and pretty i can say ANYTHING.

so yesterday ltb meeting :) recce at fort canning was abit scary because it was like gonna rain and i hate that feeling when the sky’s so dark ): hahaha.

and then dance. this is gonna be very pessimistic and you might feel like slapping me after you read this but ok go on :) i’ll let you slap me. dance is like abcdefgh i dont know. im like stoning half the time. and my mind’s not theree! now i get what everyone means when they say they dont like mass trainings at all. like when you train alongside with pro people long enough, you start buying into the you’re-not-good-enough thing. but it’s trueee and at first i think i can improve. but after awhile, i find that i dont really have the motivation to improve also. sometimes, simply because there’s no point as well. it’s like we’re in one league and the rest (meaning the pro ones) are in another superior one. worst still, they’re exclusive. haha. AAAND like no matter how much we improve, the pro ones will always be pro-er. and it will always be that way. the thing is you cant say ‘oh maybe when i’m year 2 3 or 4 then i’ll have the chance when the pro ones graduate’. this is not secondary school. they’ll always be there forever and ever. because there’s such a thing as alumni and associate members -.- and dan’s just recruiting more and more of such people. see if it took those pro people 13 years to get where they are now, it will take me another 13 years to get where they are now. right? lianzy, we’d be only be able to do pirouttes when we’re mothers :P haha. and if dan ever needs a certain number of people, well, :) he cant possibly need everyone right?

haha yay to all the noobies :) i think it’s kind of bad but dont really care anymore. yea can you all see where i’m coming from?! hahaha.

after dance ate my very very late dinner at hongkong cafe :D so fulllll. and i love lovealot bear too :D whee. and your phone’s nice to use. haha.

1.

HAPPY!

simcard’s been replaced :D
and i have a nice monstrous phone. i love it haha.
bought many colourful paper clips for 80cents (:
and a belle notebook. very pretty.

i wanna be little mermaid.

or flounder.

let me bounce and swim awaaaaaaaaaaay :D

grumpy bear.

it’s ironic.

the contact person.
the relay person.
the girl who’s always contactable.
always picks up her phone.
and always replies smses instantly.
come on, i’m famous for that.

everybody thinks i’ll die without my phone.
because i’m always smsing & smsing & smsing.
and i always pick up.
so reliable right.

wow, but what do i say now.
i don’t even feel anything.
not even angry.
not even sad.

just stone.

*

after awhile of stoning,

strangely i don’t care about not being able to call or receive calls.
it doesn’t bother me that i can’t sms or receive smses either.
the only thing that bothers me
is what’s in the phone that i’ve lost.

those messages in my inbox, and drafts. i kind of want to pull my hair (or cry) thinking about it. i mean there’s a reason why i keep those messages in my inbox. and don’t delete them. then there’s my drafts which is so full of stuff. countless and countless messages that i type to myself. and all are private. believe me, i even type stuff like usernames, passwords and things that are really personal. and there’s calender. OMG. every damn thing is stored in my calender. like seriously. without my calender i can’t remember anything. ironic. funny. yes. i remind myself to do everything everything everything there. so now what. i feel so lost. in a way, my phone calender tells me what to do every day. i don’t even bother remembering cos i rely on my phone too much. and then songs? that one doesn’t matter to me. and how about the photos? anything personal? private?

I CAN’T EVEN REMEMBER.

i hate pickpockets. damn it.

i think it’s true. i can’t live without my phone. but not for the reasons you think.

hmphhhh.

of the cars that pass us by.

20feb.

happy birthday chew yinxi! :D

you are so not 20! haha. but i love you so.

spent some birthday time with yinxi. starbucks + cheesecake + esplanade rooftop :) sorry i made you jay-run so many times when you can’t even run! :) but it was fun.

had 2 dinner dates but no dinner at all ): haha. met sarah up for short dinner. i ate one cup of yoghurt and she ate sushi! and we sat by the bridge near ttsh & talked :) then met monster and he ate and i didnt. haha. seee, this is why i said i had 2 dinner dates but no dinner. and then to the airport to send ziyan off.

21feb.

was looking through my HUGE box of old old letters :D :D it was a mountain full of letters. literally. was left kind of speechless.

he’s just not that into you :D i like alot! i think it’s all so truuuueee. waiting for phonecalls? & smses? reading the signs? thinking too much? HAHAHA. funny how girls are so insecure. meanie beeeeeean!

and then to the park with the veryvery nice bouncy seesaw & the spiderweb. i loved to climb such stuff when i was young. still love it.

22feb.

church. & talking to liz. & then breakthrough weekend briefing.

i had so much to say but i’m no longer angry. you’re disappointing.

after that met up to talk and have lunch with jerick & joel. actually i wonder why i even talked so much. haha. and then cabbed home (THEY BULLY ME MAKE ME PAY $7 TAXI FARE :D, YES WHATEVER). dee’s house :D its always fun to look through old stuff. jianyi my beloved?! hahaha.

then to the airport to send foldy off. even though it was drama & all, it ended off rather comically. she’s such a flittery social butterfly. like chrystal says, you can’t catch her, you just got to wait for her to land. (sadly she didn’t, but it’s ok, she has like a million friends) maybe it’s good we’re not as close as before because if this had happened like 5 years ago, i’d have died crying. haha.

sorry meanie :D i love you, love pucca, love pocky, love care bears, LOVE YOU.

dinner at tampines mall. very weird right. it’s like i never even go there at all. dvd shopping :D bought music&lyrics. but i really should have bought more more more. cos it was so cheap & now i really feel like buying alooooot.

i want 50 first dates. 27 dresses. sex & the city. mean girls. ps i love you. alot like love. fool’s gold. because i said so. love actully. big fish. breaking the rules. just like heaven. help me think of more more more chic flicks!

haha. actually there’re too many movies.

grr, i took train twice yesterday.

i wanna rot.

picture perfect.

ooh VERY VERY VERY happy :D i managed to get alot of my old old photos into my external hd and i’m super amused by all of them.

the number one question that keeps popping into my head is ‘OMG WHY AM I SO UGLY?!’

hahaha oh my. very happy. i have photos all the way from then till NOW :) hah.

wheewheewheee. give you all sneak peaks.

come come come come & ask me to show you more more more! & i’ll only show you those with you inside.

hahahah very funny :D

twing.

God is good :D

i’m like posting so many entries. well. the past 2 hours, don’t know what to say. good experience? who would have thought huh. hahaha, but i’m happy again.

thank you monster. even though you talked alot of nonsense. and you’re terrible at making people happier you know :P and YAY i got to talk to bobo online <3 love you, love you, love you lots. & miss you too!

Jesus, Beautiful Saviour,
God of all Majesty,
Risen king,
Lamb of God,
Holy and righteous,
Blessed redeemer,
Bright morning star

All the heavens shout your praise,
All creation bow to worship You

How wonderful, how beautiful,
Name above every name, exalted high
How wonderful, how beautiful,
Jesus your name, name above every name, Jesus

I will sing forever, Jesus I love you, Jesus I love you

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i want hug.